Catch me when i fall

Today's a special day. It has been a really long time since i had a full day outing with bf. It's been a long, long time since we last met at 9 plus in the morning and head out for our outing.

So, dressed in the appropriate attire, we headed to bedok reservoir's PAWV club house to rent a kayak. It was quite sunny. But you know?

I just told myself that, "hey! It's a really happy day today, get yourself burnt! It's alright! Just today!"

So, bf's a powerful paddler and he became my turbo engine. I think i barely paddle 100cm by myself.

After washing up, we head to had our lunch and off to ecp. Bf rented this really cute 4 wheel sheltered vehicle! It was pink with blue and hearts shelter ! It was really.. Sweet.

As the sun set, i felt really down because.. I know that we're not going to meet up for the next 2 days or so and i'll definitely miss him.

I just never stop having those feelings towards him. For almost 2 and a half years, i've never once stop feeling sad because i miss him, never once deliberately miss waving tgoodbye to him from my balcony window. Never once felt that.. Someone else would be better than him.

To me, bf is really a gentle guy ( however sometimes he's not and it hurts me so badly) he's someone, who's so rare. And i am at such an advantage to be together with him. Until now, i cant confidently say that i have faith in us. Because i do not have any confidence In myself. I dont
Think i'll ever good enough for him in terms of looks, and knowledge. Ut's not a problem that lies with him. It's me...